Fitness + Health

vacation weight loss challenge winner reveal

Like I mentioned yesterday, I am not pleased with my personal physical results. I have been very open about struggling with night time binge eating during this entire process and it has been both a blessing and a curse. A curse because I’m struggling to maintain my weight and attitude but a blessing because it has pushed me to accept the fact that there is not a one size fits all to beauty or happiness.

I mentioned yesterday that we had all taken something away from this process and for me the biggest thing I have learned is that I can be confident in my body at a higher weight even when I’m not completely happy or comfortable with how my body looks. I was strutting around all day yesterday in a bikini and I never felt the sense of embarrassment I felt even at my lowest weight. I don’t know how my mindset changed but I’ve been spending a lot of time working on my mental health and trying to be more gentle and forgiving with myself. Nobody’s perfect and nobody should have to be. 🙂

Now onto our total losses and winner reveal.

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vacation weight loss challenge: week 10 (final week results!)

This is it, folks! It’s the final vacation weight loss challenge update and although I’m not 100% happy with my own personal results, I have truly loved doing this challenge with my sister and our mom. Not to sound sappy or cliche but everyone took a little something away from this challenge and I think we’re all better for it. Regardless of weight or inches lost.

Here are our last updates.

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vacation weight loss challenge: week 9

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Oh my gosh, you guys! I’ve been so busy getting everything ready for the beach I totally forgot to update on the challenge! Whoops!

I hate to admit it but I am STILL struggling with middle of the night eating. I’ve actually been cooking and baking a bit more and that seems to help me not eat loads and loads of crap in the middle of the night but I’m still easily eating 80% or more of my calories during “trips to the bathroom” at 11:30 pm. Honestly, I’m not even upset about it anymore. Clearly, something is going on and I’m figuring it out – I’m a work in progress and that’s 100% okay. 🙂

Now for the updates.
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vacation weight loss challenge: week 8

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Over the past few weeks my mindset has shifted from “lose weight” to “get healthy”. I’ve been struggling a lot with some mental health stuff that’s taking its’ toll on all aspects of daily life – my relationships, my functionality, my ability to mom and, yes, my weight loss goals. And then the cycle starts; mental health decline > non functionality > weight loss self sabotage (i.e, binge eating) > more mental health decline > less functionality > more weight loss self sabotage….and on and on and on.

It has to stop somewhere and I know that getting my mental health in check is the best way to not only meet my weight loss goals but to get back to being a functional mother, wife and person.

Let’s check in.
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happy, healthy and honest: letting go of perfectionism

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In the five minutes I have been sitting here staring at my screen searching for a place to start I’ve re positioned my keyboard, mouse and wrist rest multiple times, I’ve sipped my coffee and I’ve glanced over and over at the baby monitor almost praying Elias will wake up so I don’t have to write this right now.

That’s how uncomfortable imperfection (and talking about it) makes me.

I have always been an over achiever with perfectionist tendencies. My family knows it, my teachers used to comment on it and it has brought me to some really great places and some REALLY shitty places. (Scouts’ honor, there is absolutely no other way to describe those places.)

Most people don’t really understand the negative effects of perfectionism – because most people who have perfectionism are really good at hiding them. Struggles + failure = imperfection. And no self respecting perfectionist would EVER let those secrets see the light of day.

Lucky for you, I have no self respect. 😉 Kidding. Totally kidding. But let’s chat anyway.
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vacation weight loss challenge: week 6

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Weight loss and fitness is such a funny thing. You think you’re doing great and – BAM – the scale is up two pounds then you go on a late night doughnut eating binge and – WHOOSH – you have miraculously lost 3 pounds overnight on the Krispy Kreme diet. 😉

My problem right now is my period; I managed to be five days late this go around so I’m still sitting around with my fingers crossed for my water retention to release. I’ve also been eating almost nothing but broccoli salad for three days so I’m sure there’s some other weight sitting around in there too… 😮

I’ve also started to notice some other changes not related to numbers on a scale. My confidence is up, I have more muscle definition and even though my weight has not changed much I am still losing inches and my clothes are fitting better (and I’m able to fit into a smaller size now than I previously would have at this weight). As much as my husband would just LOVE to say “I told you so”, he doesn’t read my blog so he won’t know that I give the credit to finally caving in to him pressuring me into lifting weights. 😉 Not huge weights or a lot of time devoted to it but it IS definitely changing my body for the better.
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vacation weight loss challenge: week 4

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Talk about a stressful week. It’s been awhile since I’ve had a TGIF outlook (about 10 years now!) and I guess under quarantine all the days sort of feel like Friday but…THANK GOD IT’S FRIDAY because I am 120001% OVER this week.

I should be excited that it’s 4th of July weekend but I’m just not – the fact that I have only put up front porch decorations is a tell tale sign that I have achieved IDGAF status and I’m ready to hit the reset button Sunday night and move on. It is so beyond normal for me that I’m having a hard time recognizing myself. 😐

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